Why Should I Stay

I always wonder, why should I not cheat?

I mean sex is dull and boring at home. I enjoy sex and cannot get the fun at home.

I really want to leave, but alas I am a coward.

Why Would I Cheat

I have to confess that part of the problem is that . . . I enjoyed cheating. Shagging a differing women with differing responses is fun.

Not to mention there are things that many will do that a nearly dead fish will not. I have done bondage, oral, kinky things and lots of fun. The good news is that I have never caught anything bad.

Cheating is a rush in and of itself. I mean it is a high that will make anyone scream.


But it is acceptance. I am not the person who my wife thinks I am.

To her I am the nice boy. the good (okay) Christian man. The former pastor, the Bible teacher. The guy who said adultery is wrong. And it is wrong. I would prefer not to do it. I wish sexual satisfaction would come from the home.

I am a Slut

I am a 79% slut. I am actually proud of this.

Why Write one Philandering

This is a good question. The bottom line is that, I like it. I have slept around so many times on my spouse that it is really bad.

So for those of you who think I am horrid. it is even worse.

At one point I was a church member. Not a small church that you can dismiss, but a strong conservative Evangelical Church.

Of course the next hard part is that I was a pastor.

I write this not because I have demons. I am writing this so people may understand what is behind this.

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